Sometimes you just need to hear the right words...
Something to encourage you to keep going, keep fighting for what you believe in.
Deep breath....
It's hard for me to write this....having my personal life out in the open.
But I think that everyone goes through these problems, and part of the issues is, we make believe we don't.
I was feeling separated from my husband.
Whether it be loneliness or jealousy.
My connections was getting further and further away.
For a minute, I wanted to be free.
My history with dating is no good. I am not the commitment type.
My view on marriage was a joke.
Not one couple on earth has not had some type of affair.
So why commit to one person for the rest of your life?
But, Ali was different.
No really.
I value that I can talk to him about anything. Even these thoughts of wanting to escape, and how I am 99% vested in this relationship and the other is waiting for the day it fails, and I run.
Of course, I didn't realize this until we talked.
I expect failure.
How can you progress past a certain point?
Then, he said....
"that day in Reno, I had that ring, you had no idea that I was going to ask you to marry me.....I had a moment with myself.....Ali, is this the right woman for you......I could just put this away and she would never know......but I said, nope, you were everything I asked God for. Your everything I ever wanted, and nothing has changed since that day, I still love you"
It's time to let go.
It's time to jump in.
I have to know that some things in life are real.
This is real, our life.
We may have our moments, but the foundation is there.
I have to remember that safety net of "we".
We are here, together, forever, holding hands until death separates us.
I love you Ali.
Thank you for being by my side
Even when you know I am broken.
Something to encourage you to keep going, keep fighting for what you believe in.
Deep breath....
It's hard for me to write this....having my personal life out in the open.
But I think that everyone goes through these problems, and part of the issues is, we make believe we don't.
I was feeling separated from my husband.
Whether it be loneliness or jealousy.
My connections was getting further and further away.
For a minute, I wanted to be free.
My history with dating is no good. I am not the commitment type.
My view on marriage was a joke.
Not one couple on earth has not had some type of affair.
So why commit to one person for the rest of your life?
But, Ali was different.
No really.
I value that I can talk to him about anything. Even these thoughts of wanting to escape, and how I am 99% vested in this relationship and the other is waiting for the day it fails, and I run.
Of course, I didn't realize this until we talked.
I expect failure.
How can you progress past a certain point?
Then, he said....
"that day in Reno, I had that ring, you had no idea that I was going to ask you to marry me.....I had a moment with myself.....Ali, is this the right woman for you......I could just put this away and she would never know......but I said, nope, you were everything I asked God for. Your everything I ever wanted, and nothing has changed since that day, I still love you"
It's time to let go.
It's time to jump in.
I have to know that some things in life are real.
This is real, our life.
We may have our moments, but the foundation is there.
I have to remember that safety net of "we".
We are here, together, forever, holding hands until death separates us.
I love you Ali.
Thank you for being by my side
Even when you know I am broken.
Oh.my.god. Someone pass me a tissue. No seriously, I'm balling like a baby right now. Know everyday, Amber, that you are blessed with a beautiful life, and even though nothing and no one is ever perfect, it's whether or not you are perfect for each other that matters. I believe you and Ali are. I love you guys and I love this blog!
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